i'll make you obsessed with me, with a little bit of secret energy

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I SWEAR I WILL MAKE THIS PRETTY WHEN I FIND SOMETHING APPROPRIATE FOR IT!

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(the words uttered are an offering, the offering for her to leave behind this miserable world that her nameless monsters had desired her to be part of. freedom. freedom offered in this poison they have decided to throw away the opportunity to take the antidote for. reason is unnecessary when it comes to being a beast, the mercy of one can have such limits that some might even be more surprised to discover that monsters could do such a thing. they didn’t need to be restrained by reason, they had to let go of it more than anything. the wolf offers herself as the best treasure her goddess could ever want. her body which she claimed as her perfect canvas, her everything that makes her while offering to lead her through the maze to the center. to the top of this peak, above the cold earth to something warmer that only they’d have together.

nobody else could have what they have, not even those nameless fools mai is afraid of. this gentle lead she takes for her would pull this goddess back from the bottom, if she were to stumble and fall on the way. perhaps even gently lead her with a sense of care beyond those that wanted nothing more than to use her. these steps taken in this dance could have clumsy missteps and moments which they’d fall, but they did not need to worry nor restrain themselves. they would learn. stumble, fall, this wolf is here to keep you as her one and only. she didn’t need to have another, what she wanted is before her whenever she realizes in the future that this went beyond what you both thought to be moments of desire fueled lust. that she could only ever want you, all to herself, that she would kill for you in reality while longing to never let go. her hands are too comfortable on her body, even as the wolf has to part long enough for those fluffy towels to be set about for more comfort on a freshly washed bathmat. the bathmat itself was soft and fluffy, but she is not going to allow her goddess to not have additional comforts. floor or not, they can make another ruinous altar from her bed some other time.

it’s only when she’s done that cellinia reaches, reaches to brush her fingers against mai’s cheek. tracing it slowly down to her neck, her collar, along those bruises and teeth marks that she left on her ribs. that she settles on top of her, a searing admiration in those eyes even as she notices that momentary doubt or thought she saw something. whatever doubts you might have, dear goddess, would fade given time. she’s thinking about all the places she wants to carve her mark into down to your soul. the places that would only be known by her when her fingers pause, along her stomach where they brush against the skin slowly in thought. she could give her a show, a show in which she’d be in her rightful place between her legs. but at the same time, there’s something more intimate in kissing her goddess while granting her a worship that only her fingers could in every caress that she’d feel within her. she decides that her mouth can be used to worship some other time. she’ll drink deep of her essence in the pleasures offered when desired most as her lips find their place against her lover’s pulse point, a scrape of teeth between each kiss and suckle of it.)

Good girl, you deserve a reward yourself, don’t you?

(another mark, another place claimed as hers, even as she breathes those lovely words out against it hotly. another precious spot that could kill if she was not a merciful creature. she displays such mercies without a second thought, without thinking in how her hand is paused, her searing gaze as reverent as it does have that silent question to it. on if she’d permit her sweet wolf to touch her again. she won’t act without her lover deciding the tempo, the lovely goddess who is being given the freedom for such things as she deserves. the wolf, her gallant wolf hungers, and she’d be a liar herself if she didn’t give her goddess every drop of touch and desire that she could ever want. holding herself back is only a struggle that is all the sweeter for what it gives as a reward.

she only wants you, lovely goddess. she could only ever desire this with you in how her lips glide along your neck, against the column of your throat. she must look so beautiful, the way her eyes glance up at her with a desire to memorize her expressions like she had the first time. she wants to see every twitch of pleasure, the way that mai sighs with each reverent touch on this makeshift altar of theirs. they can ruin it together, commit a blasphemy that heaven itself would turn away from while condemning them to this hell that awaits them in the future where their lives are so intertwined that nothing could dream of separating their bound hearts and souls from how deep they’d have fallen together.

that is what awaits them, that isn’t going to change.

what would change is the way that their fates are bound together, one would do anything for the other. she’d give her goddess the world, the sun, the moon that blesses them, and the stars. the moon itself might even wrap them in its silver sheen while keeping safe their young hearts, what’s left of them while allowing their cries of worship to be the offering it requires. those soft sighs, the sounds of their moans like songs alone when they lose all reason to greedy indulgence and desire. just like now in how cellinia finds another spot to kiss a mark into, another unblemished spot that she licks into to soothe between each kiss, each scrape of teeth and suckle of her mouth. she never will stop thinking about the things they've done, not after last night and now. she might even keep thinking about her, about everything done on these makeshift altars of sinful desires.)

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[For someone who finds herself giving in all the more deeply to the addiction of being worshipped— this goddess, in the eyes of her wild lover— Mai can quietly boast being a rather good follower, as well. It's a role she knows intimately, despite her efforts to unburden herself from the weight of it in favor of something more liberating, truly uninhibited. She permits Cellinia to quickly set their stage, a shiver rolling through her body before she allows herself to be brought to her knees upon the plush fabric laid out before her. Yet the air that cools upon the drops trickling down her limbs can only partly be blamed. Rather, it's the thrill of wanting to feel Cellinia again, to be felt by her in turn, that has the anticipation gnawing at Mai's nerves. Hasn't she had enough? This thought surfaces but for a moment, then darts back into the depths again, slipping out of her grasp when Cellinia lays her down against the towels, kneeling over her in all of her splendor. Why does her body feel like it hasn't had its fill, not even close?

Wordlessly, the answer to that question tingles under her skin, beneath the trail that Cellinia's fingers caress down along her body. Everything, Mai can feel everything, and her breath catches in her throat while she quivers from the sensations left in the wake of those gentle, calloused fingertips. That's it— that's the reason why she still feels wanting, even after submerging herself in Cellinia's deluge of ecstasy several times over. Those hands upon her seem to grasp at something far beneath the thorn-studded surface, those eyes see something desirable, an oasis somewhere in the harsh desert. Foolishly, Mai had thought that she would have shed the awe she felt after the first time she was shown such careful tenderness, such rapt attention. Maybe even after the second time— but no, she's only become more ensnared. Even if Cellinia feeds Mai affection until she becomes utterly sick with love, her body would still find itself crying out in starvation for more. Rot her down to the bones with your poison, beloved wolf, for it's a death she would gladly chase if it means that she wouldn't have to leave your side.

Were she not basking in the pleasure of Cellinia's warmth, her breath fanning against her neck as she kisses and suckles at flesh that flutters with her quickening pulse, Mai would have given herself a scolding for getting too carried away and letting herself indulge in another messy, lustful bout. How impatient they are to take one another, to be taken, that they won't even bear the wait of going about this all in proper order— but nothing about their affair thus far has been the least bit proper. If Cellinia is adamant about their greed being glorified beneath the spotlight, then this greed shall indeed dictate that propriety be swiftly dashed aside. And if Mai is to lose herself to her own more beastly desires, then she need not think herself above doing as beasts would do, right? For a beast isn't beholden to a correct time or place, all it heeds is the primal desires that pool hotly in its loins, begging to be satiated in any manner that it can. It does not restrain itself, no, it doesn't hold back until every fiber of its being is bathed in the euphoria of release.

Right— Mai had promised not to hold back. A beast or a goddess, no matter which role she chooses to play, she can't be anything less than insatiable for her audience of one, her ever-attentive wolf who waits for her to take what is hers.

'Good girl,' Cellinia calls her. A stiff breath passes through Mai's lips, a scoff intended in reply, but instead carrying the weight of something decidedly more needy than huffy. It does something quite ruinous to her, makes her crumble just enough that she would want to do whatever she could to snatch more of that acclaim for herself. In truth, that praise is practically reward enough, but if Cellinia wants to give her more than that, then Mai would be stupid to play the modest little maiden. No, she promised to be greedy— so when she gasps sharply at yet another mark left behind, Mai ignores the desperate flush that creeps upon her cheeks and splays her hand over the one Cellinia rests stop her stomach, rubbing her thumb over her knuckles with a partial urgency, a quiet demand to keep caressing her.]

Of course I do.

[But her haughtiness has been momentarily broken by Cellinia's casual praise, and if she isn't careful, then it would almost sound like she is nearly begging for that reward offered. But that isn't the kind of good girl that her lover wants. What Cellinia wants, Mai decides for her, is Mai's free hand gripping the back of her head, fingers buried in her damp hair as she ensures that her lips won't part from leaving proof of their hunger upon her skin. What her wolf wants is to feel Mai's greed spilling out in the heat of their bodies connected, held fast against one another as if they were molded perfectly to fit together like this upon their makeshift altar. What she wants is Mai entangling their legs just a bit, her knee brushing idly against Cellinia's thigh as her body hums at having her so close once more.]

But, spoil me too early, and I'll forget that I have to earn that reward, won't I?

[A half-baked caution, mused aloud. Mai chews slightly at the inside of her lip as her eyes catch Cellinia's while the wolf leaves her kisses wherever she pleases. Oh, of course she looks absolutely beautiful as she does so, Mai can't help but find herself captivated again by her searching gaze. Does she find what she seeks, does she enjoy what her eyes drink in? The blush making itself at home upon Mai's skin, the way her eyelashes flutter quickly whenever Cellinia's lips brush against a particularly sensitive spot upon her neck. Do her precious ears revel in the way that Mai gasps and sighs softly whenever her lover finds a new spot to leave another love bite? Does it not feel splendid to have her goddess squirm and shudder beneath her, the heat from her body growing in a display of exquisite enjoyment of this sweet intimacy shared?

Mai can't stand how perfect it feels, how magnificent Cellinia looks devoting herself like this. She can't stand how badly she wants more, how desperate she knows she'll become for it the moment she can't have any more. When she speaks again, her voice is soft, breathy, but her words are resolute, as if she has at last understood the depths of her own desires.]

…Do it. Reward me so well that all I'll be able to think about it earning it afterward, Cellinia.

[If Cellinia wishes to give her the entire world and every last star that casts its silvery light across the endless skies— if that is the grand magnitude of this act of worship— then Mai will gladly repay this priceless gift of devotion until her last breath. Yes, just as Cellinia would show Mai what it is to become a proper beast for a spell, Mai will venerate her wolf as a veritable goddess, herself. She'll show her just how prettily she can get on her knees to worship, and earn every last bit of affection she has to give.]

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(it’s a certain addiction, a certain death and feeling in how addicted to this sweet poison they’re becoming. the antidote neglected, their bodies growing familiar with that searing desire that drives them to want more. to need more, it’s insatiable in how they crave it, need it. they might as well be ready to die without the touch of love and devotion that they’re granted. the tenderness and searing looks from one another. how could it not destroy them when they’re apart? drive them mad, ruin them further as that longing eats them apart. the immense desire, the hunger, how she feels it wrap a hand around her throat from sheer greed thrumming through her veins. the hammering of her heart, the way she can’t help that her nerves almost feel lit on fire with each touch given and taken. there is no end to this greediness, the ecstasy of it as her body feels as though it has yet to reach its own satisfaction. abandoning reason is only part of what it means to be a beast. she’ll teach her how to be a proper one in offerings of freedom and wishes of allowing her to take it, the promises that were sworn are only part of this desire to teach her goddess what it means to be alive.

proper order, there wasn’t a need for it. she’ll rot you down in this sweetness, dear goddess, she won’t let up until every drop of poison melts you together and ties you further into fate’s whims. starved, hungry, and never bound to be satisfied, not even bound to find themselves full as this debauched altar demands. she shows it in her eyes, she would never lose that awe to them and desire. the want and desire to memorize her sighs, her expressions. how her hands reach through thorns that cover them mutually to give her such careful tenderness. the attention and how rapturous it must be to be worshiped like a goddess. that must be reward enough, the utterances of her most treasured devotee and how those hands find a place along her body. to make it her own alone. nobody else would have her, not as long as her sweet wolf breathes. not as long as she marks her skin in kisses and love bites, offerings of her own in more debauched worship as they ignore reason for something else.

her lips are against her collar, her eyes never leaving her goddesses face. the flush to her cheeks, the fluttering of her lashes, the sound of her voice as she shudders when her lips find that sensitive spot. a spot that she licks into slowly with a wolfish tongue whilst her hand travels lower at the brush of her goddesses thumb against her knuckles. their hands together when it trails downward, her fingers parting her lips to tease and feel her along the wet heat of her sex. she can almost smell it, the thick scent of arousal. mouthwatering as cellinia’s lips work their way to one breast, to run her tongue along the soft skin she’s marked again slowly. ah, she tastes so heavenly. so good, is what cellinia thinks whenever she takes a nipple gently between her teeth and rolls it with her tongue. each lick of it something gentle, something tender. she almost moans from the taste of her skin mixed into the water, how can one girl make her desire so much?

she isn’t so sure, she only knows that she likes it. that she wants more of this, of her. consequences be damned about doing this out of order. she didn’t care before, she doesn’t now as the wolf releases her nipple eventually at her lover’s words. make her want to think about how to earn these rewards, huh? she can do that for her goddess, she’d only ever want her to desire more of such praise. maybe even more of whatever her greedy heart could ask for from the wolf. keep sighing sweetly for her, beautiful goddess, keep making those sounds and giving her these lovely sights. she looks so enthralled, so much like she finds herself hungering for more of those expressions and sighs. her moans, even, when the wolf decides she shouldn’t keep her goddess and her pleas waiting for too long.

the entangling of their legs is only part of what her devoted wolf is after, the rest? that’s obvious whenever she’s slow about her fingers pressing into that wet heat. one at first, then another joining to grant her one urge. to be full and touched until her voice is raw again.)

You asked then, Mai, I’ll give you as much as your greed could ever desire, you’re mine after all, aren’t you?

(she says it so sweetly, that question, how she whispers it against her lips and kisses her deeply. mine, she says. they both don’t know what that might entail, but it’s going to be apparent the longer this goes on. that she would keep a lonesome goddess as her own. nobody else would take her from the den of a wolf that is protective, protective and willing to shed their blood to get what she wants. what reactions might she give her now? those wild eyes, they look so pleased, to learn again and again how her goddess wants to be touched. how she even desires to give her those cries, the attempts at haughtiness amused the wolf. the wolf, who knows that her goddess is a cute liar when she wants to hide such things from her. it’s so precious, to see that she wants to entice her further with that by playing coy and hiding behind teasing and scathing remarks that were half-hearted.

it’s so very good, to hear it. why wouldn’t it be? it’s the chase that also makes it sweeter, such as now in how she touches her goddess. the pump of her fingers starts slowly, steady, how could she not answer her desires, too?)

I wonder what kind of rewards you’d ask for from me. Will they be sinful, or will they be something sweet?

(she sighs it out between each kiss, each lick of her tongue. the wolf can guess what the obvious answer would be, but she’s learned to indulge her lover in these imaginative exercises that they’ve both begun sharing. it didn’t matter how it started, they both indulged one another a little too much to behave. their patience being so thin when faced with each other is proof of that, and cellinia is usually the more patient predator of them. yet that’s fine, she doesn’t mind this change. to give her more of her bestial desires, those instincts that run hot in her.)

[onepromise]

[Desiring, demanding, obtaining— Mai feels herself tumbling down the steps faster than she can get proper footing as she grasps at what it means to liberate the greed-drenched monster inside of her. These yearnings made known, given voice before the rigidity of reason has a chance to crush them underfoot, now leave her to reap the consequences of forfeiting the pitiable parts of herself to meet this wolf in her domain. Tearing away the safety of accepting her lot in life, the old certainty that she could only ever be prey to something more terrifying and more ravenous than she might ever become— how painful it should have felt, how torturous it ought to be, to be stripped bare of the rags and be seen for all of her loneliness, begging for solace. Ah, but instead, the searing ache that Mai had feared suffering beneath is masked rather beautifully by the thrills of Cellinia's kisses, electric and humming wherever her lips find themselves next.

In a way, Mai forgets that she should feel ashamed of appearing so vulnerable, when her lover is swathing her in such attentive care. The ardor with which Cellinia journeys her way across her body is more than enough to stoke the fires of the ravenous beast that she encourages Mai to become. This wolf shows her thoroughly how to savor her meal, only grazing her sharp teeth in the places where she knows she'd get the most delicious reactions out of Mai, these clipped gasps and muted groans that fill the scant space between them. Another sensitive spot marked for Cellinia, and Cellinia alone. An amusing notion, that perhaps more and more of Mai's body has become increasingly sensitive to whatever manner of touch that this focused lover might lavish upon her. That wherever she wants to lay her possessive kisses would undoubtedly send a rush of exhilaration through Mai's veins, flooding her with enough adoration to drown her in it.

A low whine slices through the otherwise quiet breathlessness, drawn out between the dual sensations of Cellinia's tongue running over collar, and her fingers sliding down lower, lower until they stop where Mai is aching for her most. Good, that's right— show her by example, Cellinia. Show her how splendid it is to let one's appetite burgeon and consume everything that its relentless flames lap at. Mai is all too ready to ignite beneath her skilled touch, oh, how badly she wants to be on fire for Cellinia again. Surely her beautiful wolf can already feel it, when her fingertips drag teasingly between her lips, coating themselves in the slick, hot arousal that only grows whenever she caress her just right. Mai's hand remains loosely over Cellinia's at first, wishing to feel each small, careful motion with which she relays this promise of pleasure.

As soon as Cellinia's lips kiss tenderly over her breast, she is rewarded with the sweetest of sighs against her sharp ears. Those fingers of hers do not let up for a single moment while her tongue gently plays with the sensitive bud of flesh that stiffens prettily for her attention. Enjoy her for a bit, Cellinia, for Mai finds that her lover is in the perfect place for her mouth to have some fulfillment of its own— first, Mai's lips purse tightly around the edge of one fluffy ear, and she breathes out a small frustrated groan in response to the stimulation she's receiving at the same time. For the time being, she lets her eyes flutter shut as she suckles and nibbles gracelessly, grateful to have some way to muffle how needy she sounds from these maddening touches alone. Too bad, that she can't conceal the dismay in her eyes when Cellinia at last pulls away, drawing herself up to meet Mai face to face again. It's written in her goddess' slightly furrowed brows, the flush deeper on her cheeks as she gives a half-convincing pout— at least, until that expression becomes one far more blissful, and a whole lot more honest, at what Cellinia decides she'll do next.

After having worked Mai up quite nicely, there's hardly any resistance against the fingers she slowly pushes past her entrance. A shallow exhalation soon dissolves into loud, sharp whimper the deeper she goes, and Mai's body fast remembers how perfect Cellinia feels inside of her like this. Instinctively, her walls flutter and cling to her fingers. A strong relief washes over Mai, but the ache for this satisfaction does its battle all the same with the peace she wants to revel in.

She returns the kiss before she answers that tenderly-whispered question, and the kiss is delightfully messy, half-ruined by tiny gasps that find their way past Mai's lips.]

Mm-hmm, right… I-I'm—

[Any other time, and Mai would absolutely hate how desperate her eyes might look, searching Cellinia's eagerly once she hears that one beautiful terrible word: Mine. But Cellinia knows just how to get Mai where she wants her— a quick learner, this wolf. All Mai can do, is follow her lead. She has learned, too, after all, that her lover enjoys hearing Mai eagerly concede to being her possession.]

I'm yours.

[It goes without saying,— but why not say it? For it excites her to speak it aloud, just as it must excite Cellinia to hear it confirmed so ardently.]

Hmph… T-Too late to ask for something sweet, with you touching me like this…

[Her attempt at a sneering retort is flimsy, broken by a shaky whimper as Cellinia begins to ease her fingers in and out of her. She can't hide from those keen eyes— but does she even want to? Mai's fingers at the back of Cellinia's neck dig in just a bit more, keeping those eyes firmly on her, as if she wants this beautiful demise of hers to be watched without fail. You know it already, sweet wolf, what a lovely little hypocrite Mai can be.]

But—

[Their kiss breaks for a moment, and Mai breathes out a harsh sigh when she feels Cellinia press even more slowly, more deeply into her. Her eyes search her lover's for another quick moment, that attentive gaze that hasn't left a single detail of Mai's blissful reactions out of her sight. Nothing escapes Cellinia's watch, no, not even Mai herself can ever escape so long as her wolf wills it. How perfect Cellinia is, the beauty that she boasts all the more frightening because the beast within her knows just how well to attune itself to the object of its relentless desire.]

—but you'd give it to me, if that's what I wanted.

[These little exercises in imagination are plenty enjoyable, especially when they teeter so close to becoming reality. It's evident enough in the way that Mai's body reacts to these suggestions that she relishes indulging in this bit of play, even if her own cheekiness is fast-fading.]

Y-Yeah, I already know— you'd want to give me everything.

[How noble of Mai, to acknowledge Cellinia's devotion with whatever slivers of pride she can cobble together in the position that she's in.]

So why should I choose, hm?

[Sweet or sinful, what good is her greed if she can't demand both manners of rewards? Ah, Cellinia— how you yourself have become the most insidious of poisons, so quick to have Mai drunk on the power that is fed by her own neediness. After all, you've mercilessly ripped her from the shadows that she would have cowered in, where she would have crumbled and given in to the gloom, not finding herself worthy of any reward. Where else is she to turn, then, but towards the unnerving vision of her own greed, and fulfill the desires that it nearly brands into her very heart? For it has no intention whatsoever of being restricted, a rather wicked declaration largely inspired by Cellinia's own urging from before.

So, darling wolf, both shall be hers, no? How could you present to her the options and not expect her to want it all, this third choice that you've given her the confidence to visualize? A reward so sweet will be the pretty words falling from your lips, while your sinful fingers draw the most unholy sighs and groans from your lover. Or perhaps, that mouth of yours is better suited to speaking utter filth into your greedy goddess' ears, as your loving touch finds itself at home within her slick heat, making her body feel as if no other sweetness could ever compare.

Mai draws her in for another deep kiss, her tongue gliding pleasantly against Cellinia's, while her hand leaves her lover's to now grab tightly at her scarred hip. She can't say it, that this alone is enough reward. Though, it thrills her plenty to imagine what more she could possibly attain, the thoughts alone arousing her all the more.]

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(she was right, right on all counts. cellinia wouldn’t restrain herself, that she likes to hear the way her lover has her own demands. that she responds to being called hers so willingly, cellinia can feel it. how it tickles her senses, the instincts burrowed deep within her. why wouldn’t it? she has that craving, that urge and desire to make mai only hers. that she strips free her from the shadows so naturally is only part of that ever burning desire she carries. she wouldn’t settle for anything less than the greed within her being freed, given to her while they lay together and to be mutually owned. this isn’t something one-sided. if they’re going to have a lesson in animalistic desires, something bestial, that would only be a hindrance for this. mai shedding the skin of humanity for a beast’s pelt for a time with her teacher being one of the best that she could ever ask for. she’d teach you thoroughly mai, don’t even doubt that while her ears miss the attention they received already.

how she moaned for her before she came up, to kiss her after taking that time to work her up into being so aroused. a lesson in freedom that only something like a wolf could bring with those beautiful moans, the sighs that escape her lips after that cute pout. she must really love playing with her ears, being able to preoccupy her mouth from their adorable reactions to her goddesses lips and tongue running along the sharp outline of them. the issue is more that cellinia likes to have her mouth on mai too much, she’ll need a different lesson in patience. one which might result in her being restrained again so that her beautiful goddess could touch her into not restraining the bestial and baser instincts that she carries. would that be good for you, mai? seeing her like this more often, all for your eyes alone? she would hope so, as her fingers work into a steady rhythm. the stroke of them against her walls as they pump in and out.

plunging themselves deep, deep enough that the half-ruined kiss and her goddesses broken groans, sighs, are music to her ears. the right thing needed to stir up those instincts. she needs so much more of it, so why would she hold back? mai wasn’t a liar when it came to knowing this much about cellinia from their time together, as short as it is, being illuminating on what the wolf desires and what she’d do for her in those vows and promises. she was a hypocrite, but that was fine. she finds that part of her that tries to act cute, to lie and behave like she didn’t intend for the opposite to happen, to be another adorable part of her. it’s something else that’s mesmerizing when it comes to her goddess. her little red riding hood who was tortured from this sweet pleasure and poison offered by a wolf. the hungering desire of her as she poisons her, as mai even poisons her darling wolf into wanting only the love she could offer as her own.

they needed nothing more than that in how this ignites something fierce, burning them up to pieces. like cinders. they could be reborn by this affair of theirs whenever love desires it most. demand, seek it out, desire it, and even take it. she has so much to give, so much to let her goddess take from this worship. to have in her greedy hands while realizing the truth of the matter. cellinia would give her everything. everything down to her soul, her body, and this sweet poison she carries. what good was resisting? it only makes it linger more as they carry on in this ruinous affair. mai would get whatever she desires most, cellinia could even offer her sin in her words and sweetness in her touch. or sin and her touch and sweet words vividly spoken to paint a picture of debauchery that only two girls such as them could ever hold within their hands.

the delightfully messy kiss, the indulgent brush of their tongues seeking one another, this is true bliss. something close to it between the way their bodies fit together, the moans fed to her lips and mai taking hold of her scarred hip to drag her closer. a thing of beauty, even when so desperate for her and needy. even while she attempts to hide what she wants like the hypocrite that she is, the liar that her beautiful goddess could be while the wolf can feel it in how their hearts pound together. why wouldn’t she want more? it’s torture to resist, it’s torture to tell herself that she shouldn’t while the reasonable side of her mind struggles in vain to fight against what the animalistic side desires more. what that starved part of her heart can’t help in its cravings for her goddess.)

I’d always give it to you.

(she would, without question, she didn’t have to choose as the wolf utters those words breathlessly between kisses. between the glide of their tongues, shared breaths, and heat thrumming in her veins. she’s such a mess herself, letting go this quickly for a girl that knew how to wind her up into whatever she desired more for the mood. a loving devotee, a girl who worships her body like it means something against the shadows which threaten to take her back down into the ink black darkness. her handsome wolf, her beautiful lover, with those piercing eyes who stares at her so reverent. she doesn’t restrain her urge to commit blasphemous sins and commit to memory this girl’s loveliest of expressions.

just like she wants in how cellinia felt the way those fingers dig into the back of her neck, this beautiful demise is hers to watch alone. don’t ever dare to give it to another again, mai, take her deeper down this bottomless ocean. your manmade heaven will be built carefully, crafted with such care that not even those fools who wished to end you would be able to breach it. she’d make sure of that in how cellinia looks positively wild by the spark in her eyes. that spark of desire that seems to never go away once mai starts to push her into reacting, but could she be blamed for that? neither of them could be, not without equal blame for what this has caused and what would come from it at the end of their journey.)

Why ask whenever you can get both, whenever you can demand it from me. Like now, look at you, so beautiful. Your body fits so wonderfully against mine, it takes me so well.

(never mind that she doubts her dirty talk sounds proper, but it’s befitting of her to have sinfully sweet words and praises. only the sweetest of filth would slip from those kiss bruised lips that keep coming back for more of her taste. that need to preoccupy themselves against her mouth, her skin, wherever they find themselves at.

this beautiful and savage wolf, covered in ink and scars, she can only belong to one woman and one person. if only she realized that person is right in front of her, that this girl who cries out for her so prettily is the one that shall have her. this is a dance for two, a stage for two, however they wish to call it. not a shared stage with any other soul but one another who would so naturally desire to keep what’s theirs. their lover is only theirs, any other that tried would find themselves on the receiving end of their brutal garden and joined thorns. there would be no taking them away from this den as they fall deeper down, pushed deeper into what would be their lives.)

What I want is to hear you, be it sinfully sweet or filthy. I want you to touch me, to claim me like how I am you. Mark me as I have your body. Your own canvas, the way that I make yours into mine.

(take her the way you desire most, touch her like she doesn’t need enough. that’s only fitting, lovely goddess, your darling wolf only demands that you carve this mark deep down into her. that her body may never forget who claims it, who demands it more than anything. this is what she wants, greed in its purest of forms. raw passion, desire, and though they deny it, love itself that mixes into their lustful desires.)

I only need you.

(isn’t that the sweetest thing, uttered as she kisses this girl so deeply? her tongue slick, licking into mai’s while her free hand reaches to trace along her lover’s body as best as she can. her battle worn fingertips tracing a path along her ribs, to her breasts when it cups one of them. it starts to even grab it, rolling a swollen nub of a nipple between her thumb and forefinger with each squeeze of it. the attention she gives is something only fit for her goddess, they wouldn’t know what this true worship is.

they wouldn’t even know the sinful way that the wolf would worship you at any time that you wanted, mai. so be greedy, take all of it from her. demand it all. she’ll give it to you. what good was having this greed if they restrained themselves from it?

nothing was good if they did, that was something long since decided from the start of this affair of theirs. because of it, cellinia could only let out these desires. this care that she gives out with the intent of not letting someone else take away what is rightfully mai’s. the tender affection, the poison on her lips between each harsh kiss. how they’re nearing graceless desperation.

this is what she will have on this makeshift altar of many, cellinia would make certain of that.)

[onepromise]

[It's a touch trickier than Mai would have anticipated, this lesson at relinquishing human sensibilities in exchange for the unbridled hunger of a beast. Curiously enough, she's half-fooled by her lover's gentleness with her, those lovely words and the beautiful pace she sets with her fingers thus far. There's not a single doubt in her mind that she has ended up with the best of the best, as far as teachers are concerned. Cellinia can walk both worlds without issue, appearing to live quietly amongst humans while still being able to thoroughly indulge in her natural instincts without leaving a trail of bloody ruin in her wake. Well, no— in this case, the ruin that she would leave her lovers in is hidden within the longing she roots deeply within their bodies, melting them with such ease that they would do nearly anything to be caught, trapped beneath a wolf's sharp gaze one more time.

The more that Mai lets Cellinia lead her, the more she allows herself to observe without giving in thoughtlessly to the sweetness of their intimacies, the better she can see where her own path could entangle with that of a beast. She can follow the thread masquerading as the kisses that Cellinia is impatient to indulge in, despite how she seemed to enjoy the feel of Mai's mouth upon her ears. True, the greed is there, lurking, anticipating the moment where it can bask in all of its unhindered glory. But it wears— and convincingly so— the image of something patient and yearning. This lesson of theirs demands more of Mai than might have been earlier considered. Perhaps it even demands more of Cellinia, her very guide. To love a human as a beast, to love a beast as a human— somewhere in the middle, they might find that each is more a reflection of the other than they would have ever fathomed.

Each step of this beautiful dance calls upon Mai to rise above the swelling waves of bliss that want to whisk her away. Cellinia, effortlessly, leads her across this stage of theirs with her touch, and when she hotly murmurs her sin-soaked adoration, it's as if she is orchestrating the very unrestrained reactions that Mai's body gives her. How she shudders and tightens reflexively around her when Cellinia praises her, calling her beautiful when she has her like this. Of course, Mai thinks, wants to blurt out, that Cellinia would be lucky if she'd ever have anyone more beautiful than Mai Zen'in holding her close, and closer still because she can't get enough.]

C-Cellinia—

[But she doesn't utter whatever petulant remark she might've otherwise wanted to wind up her lover with. No, she can't reply with anything other than a breathless almost-laugh, and Cellinia's pretty name twisted into something akin to a plea. How will her good little pup answer her? Will she give her more, more of both her touch and her filthy praise, and feast her eyes on just how beautifully Mai can unravel for her? With every deep, possessive plunge of Cellinia's fingers into her wet heat, Mai stops trying to bite back the shaking whimpers. What good is there in denying this pretty display from what is hers? Let her hear this raw desire and unadulterated greed, let her taste the desperation in each kiss that Mai breaks prematurely with her clipped gasps.

Her sweet wolf enjoys how splendidly Mai takes the relentless pleasure that Cellinia builds up between her hips, does she? How terrible, utterly terrible of this beast, the way she ruins her with how sweetly she speaks to her, all the while her hands take their impatient fill of Mai's body. And she spoils her like this, Cellinia summoning the greed to devour on what she rots away with her devotion— that which doesn't belong anymore in the prize she has claimed for her own.]

O-Only need me?

[Cellinia's breathtaking declaration is echoed in the strained notes of Mai's voice. Fiery pride flashes in her eyes, only tempered by the lapping tides of awe at hearing such words. Her lover's need competes with the touches she so deftly gives, and it's hard to say which of them causes Mai's body to react so hotly, a notable trembling in her limbs at the calloused fingertips explore their way up along her torso. And when they dance over her ribs, higher and higher, to then cradle the soft flesh of her breast, a soft mewl of approval is hummed into their kiss. It's utterly splendid, this attention fed to her without abandon, sending deeper rushes of pleasure in waves through her body just when she had acclimated to the bliss of the sensations. A sharp gasp is stifled in response to Cellinia's fondling, the way she teases at the nipple between her fingers stoking Mai's nerves and feeding the heat pooling in her stomach as Cellinia's ceaseless fingers are met with more of her dripping essence with every thrust.

Part of her wants to repay the careful tenderness, but when she drags her nails up along from Cellinia's hip, leaving rosy lines that only deepen in their hue— is the sweetness that her darling wolf wants in return not this? Marking her in ways that, even if only temporarily, would remind her of the sting of Mai's ache for her. A shame, that these will fade, a shame that they'll have no choice but to offer themselves up to each other repeatedly until these marks of ownership become scars of love that stretch across their very souls.]

Tell me again. Tell me again, Cellinia.

[Praise, affection— whatever one wishes to call it, Mai wants it. Needs it, a more apt conclusion, or craves it. For this much, the greedy little animal inside of her that waits for its chance to shine, digs through her reluctance with claws too sharp. And they sink, deeply, deeper still, latching onto Cellinia though not drawing a single drop of blood. It finds its well-earned throne in the hopeless, passionately messy kisses that Mai steals from her lover, and it makes its demands in the hand she grazes over the scar on Cellinia's abdomen. Lower, lower, the greed simply won't be satisfied until Cellinia's pleasure is at Mai's mercy, as well. How excited does it make you, pretty wolf, breaking your lover down so adoringly? It'd be foolish to think that Mai's curiosity won't be getting the better of her, at the behest of this greedy shadow.]

Tell me— [there, there is that undeniable begging in her voice— the one that no one else will ever get the privilege of hearing, just as Cellinia desires ] —tell me, and I'll make you beautiful.

[And she will, that's a promise. She shall flood your veins with a pleasure that'll feed your addiction, Cellinia, and leaves you in bliss only to suffer in misery when the thrill has worn off. It's not so different from the way you're calling upon Mai to sin with you— she already knows she'll be tormented by the memories of this brief fling, and she loathes it. Wallow in the anguish with her, then, won't you? Her greed isn't as pretty as yours, not yet— but that's fine, isn't it? Even those sharp eyes can find something beautiful in the way that Mai's fingers trail between Cellinia's thighs, stroking hungrily over sweetly sensitive places. Because that's how Mai longs to make Cellinia into something even more beautiful for her own eyes, sparkling with yearning and pleasure. Perhaps her wolf will have to enjoy her kisses while she can, Mai's greed might soon latch onto a craving for a different kind of taste… ]

[swordpour]

(lessons like this take time, effort. to be an expert means letting go of one’s inhibitions to release what would be their deepest greed, their unspoken desires and everything. there are no winners when it comes to the matter of love, how it might as well destroy them for their existence. believing themselves above it, beyond it. what good has falling this hard done for any poor girls like them, who dreamed of freedom and the peace that it could bring upon weary souls? it’s done nothing. cellinia is something proud, something beautiful in all her scars, the ink, and the bestial air that comes from her. a threat of tearing apart others while displaying acts of tenderness that no beast should know about. she’s so cruel in these affections, to herself, to others, and perhaps eventually mai as well while they begin to unravel and bind themselves to the fate of one another. nobody would rip away this lesson in greed, not even this love that would come of it.

love will be their doom. it is their ruin, the one thing that shall never be forgotten in the deep etchings of scars and pain within them. cellinia is slow, slow to lead this dance even with sweet words of longing, of offerings that should have never been spoken. she says them, regardless, she dances so beautifully as they lean away from something like fucking to making love. that terrible and ruinous emotion which fuels lovers into surrendering what little they have left to whatever heaven may exist. those words, so pretty, they were said without knowing that it was only another spell of their doom in which they’d at the end never be the same as they were before. she’d show her such delights, the whispers, while letting go of what had been their sanity. their mundane and pathetic reality, which fades further away the longer they spend in this carefully crafted altar. this sacred place, fending off the thoughts of how undeserving they are.

about how they never deserved this, love never was to be in their hands. but she calls her beautiful, she says so truly, the words that only drive the nail deeper into their mutual coffin that would be the future. i only need you, what tainted words could only ever be felt by them who never knew the beauty of it. being needed, being wanted. having a home, a place to belong to without fear of being shunned for what they are. they’re only two foolish girls who made the mistake of telling themselves love was a game that would destroy their poor hearts further for trying to make sense of it. to chase it, even. the sound of mai crying out for her, that desperate plea in her voice as she says her name. not the last name she holds scornfully close as the only survivor, but cellinia. she wants to hear it more. taste it, even, on the lips of her goddess as she cries out such sinful sounds that would put even the most practiced of singers to shame. there’s nothing more beautiful than this. to see it, to feel her unraveling before the sharp eyes of a wolf.

pull her nearer, even while they kiss so breathless and graceless.

whatever remark can stay silenced, they both didn’t need to hear it. just looking at her is enough to stir her baser instincts. she’s made that claim all the more personal with saying those tainted words, those words which hold to them something deeper. past what should have been a fling, a simple tryst. oh, they truly were foolish for them to not realize what they’re getting themselves into by willing something like that into existence by how they play at ignoring the emotions that stir. love at first sight, ignorance at first sight with their pretending. the sweet wolf can’t take her eyes off her dear goddess. what a beautiful sight, unraveling before sharp eyes that would commit every gasp and sigh and expression to memory. possession, want, and greed.

it’s wicked, how this devoted beast could be so hungry. so desperate itself in how she kisses this girl, this is what true devotion feels like. looks like. the plunge of her fingers deep into that wet heat, the feeling of her arousal dripping out more from each greedy thrust of them. there would be no restraint, not as long as mai will’s for that. she would be given every drop of greed and devotion. every taste of sinfully sweet and unholy words on her tongue, it’s solely hers to have, to cherish. there would be no other, nobody other than her. mai could count on that from cellinia, her ever devoted beast, who would sooner lash out were someone to try and suggest she needs to worship another.

the sweet music of mai’s voice straining is enough to stir up something fierce within her, that sound is only another part of the beauty in this sinful siren song. her hands are attentive, the unrelenting thrust of her fingers, the fondling of her breast with care, while mai’s voice causes this wolf to be unable to look away more than usual. that mewl of approval and how her body trembles is only all the sweeter for this beast of hers. isn’t it so good of her, mai? she’s giving you so much of her. she’s even giving you more than any person could ever try to, nobody else could compare to your sweet wolf, can they? she’s beyond a human in her reverence, don’t you want to see the way she’d treat your body so tenderly, treat you like all others couldn’t compare to you?

she can feel it in how she scratches those rosy lines along her hip, she could even feel it in the way mai returns this tenderness with her own devotion. a wish to mark her wolf’s body in scratches and marks that would have to be renewed again and again. carving them past scars that were carried, crafting them carefully into a message of love or devotion of their own without acknowledging the pitiful truth behind it. that this is love. they won’t be returning from love, they’d only die from it and be born again for their troubles.

ah, but her greedy goddess reminds her, she’s not one to hold back when she pleases. cellinia is reminded quickly, especially when mai’s hand goes lower. brushing up against that nasty scar, against sensitive places of her own, while cellinia breathes out a shaky sigh in response in their kisses. the passionate and messy kisses, hopeless, but wanting more. more than anything, the utter wanton pleasure between them just waiting to be released from its shackles. the beast can only be in awe at seeing how her goddess loves most to hear those words. the ruinous words that were proclaimed.

should she say it again for you, mai? the sweet touch of your fingers is torture, in how her own voice strains. more, give her more. give her everything, give her this devotion of your own. give her this greed that’s running through your veins, sink your claws into her like she won’t belong to another herself. don’t hold back, lovely goddess. this wolf has a taste for you and your sweet affection. this poison that you give her as it rots her down into this devoted monster that she will be for you.)

I only need you.

(does she need to say it louder, mai? because she might, she might if she demands it. the way her voice strains from pleasure, the drip of arousal and how wet she is for her. it would be so easy to slip her fingers inside if mai wishes to, cellinia wouldn’t stop her from doing what she wanted. her lover can touch her freely, they could let go together if she really desired it for this show of sinful devotion on their makeshift altar. her greed didn’t need to be a thing of beauty, cellinia would still be awestruck by it. it would get there in time, and even if it did not, cellinia would always find it beautiful. she can taste her as much as she desires, it’s only fitting that the wolf doesn’t demand any less than that. she wants to be tormented, to be haunted by it. from this pure agony of knowing they would for a time be apart. so feed your desires, mai, she wants that more than anything.

she’d never stop chasing her if she did.)

[onepromise]

[Oh, how they please Mai, these words repeated at her insistence. And how they almost suffocate her, stealing her breath away and leaving her yearning to hear them again— just once more, and one more time after that, to feed a soul-splitting void that she wished she could have ignored forever before Cellinia waltzed into her life and tempted her with the promise of devotion. To be needed, in any manner of the word, is all Mai had ever truly wanted. For someone whose existence hardly meant a thing to anyone, being needed was everything. Because who else in her life held her in such esteem, nowadays? Those numbers, already embarrassingly small, have long-since dwindled into practically nothing. A few friends, maybe, who very well might leave her, too, someday— in life or in death.

Or maybe Mai would be the one to disappear, unceremoniously and without mourning, cast to the monsters as she has been. She'd die without ever being needed again, she figured, an empty loneliness that was befitting of a soul half-formed.

But in the same twist of fate that had birthed her into that family, Mai Zen'in has found herself being desired— needed— by a beautiful monster.

It bewilders Mai, as she takes in the ragged and strained voice that utters such desires to her, while her own hands slip ever-closer to where she really longs to be. It bewilders her— it's as though she is staring Death in the eyes and it demands that she lives. Cellinia is a paradox, a beautiful anomaly, and if Mai had any sense she'd run from her, as far as she can from those mesmerizing eyes. Instead, she holds her closer, because the only sense Mai can make of things is that being needed mattered far more than surviving ever could.]

That's right.

[A softly groaned approval, her own voice trembling from a poor attempt at maintaining composure while taking Cellinia's sweet touch. Mai breathes out sharply when her fingers delve in especially deep, and she decides to steal another graceless kiss from her lover's lips, foolishly hoping that she could steal the very air from Cellinia's lungs to make up for how breathless the wolf has left her from this declaration.]

That's right, Cellinia.

[What a good girl she is, better than Mai could ever try to be even at her most sincere. She hums her praise between their kisses, the desperation mutual and the sensations of their hands upon one another leaving their nerves in a frenzy. This is it, this is the feeling that Mai is so greedy for, giving herself up so wantonly to be cherished. It feels as mind-numbingly splendid as it did the night before, and she lets the sounds of her pleasure fall more easily from her lips when they part for air. Mai pants raggedly whenever Cellinia's fingers sink into her, her walls tightening around them reflexively, and she gives a low whimper whenever her lover draws herself free, even if it's only for a moment before plunging back inside.

It nearly drives her mad, practically to the point where she'd be content to let her mind drift in favor of the ecstasy daring to consume her, but there's something she wants to say while she still has her wits about her.]

And I…

[But there's a split-second of hesitation, a wavering somewhere in the back of her mind— reason daring to make her second-guess her real feelings. Mai kills it swiftly, that loathsome and unsurprising notion, treating it as if it were a trifling little curse at the end of her revolver. If only life could be so easy, if only she could really be so strong, so honest. Out there, in the real world, Mai knows exactly what she is. But here, atop this altar made of their entangled bodies, she wants to be as precious as Cellinia makes her feel. Reason has no place in whatever this whirlwind affair will lead her to, or will leave her in, once they finally part ways.

Mai's whole existence is unreasonable— shall these feelings not be unreasonable, as well?

So, she kisses Cellinia again, hard and deep, their tongues slick against one another's. Mai groans hungrily when her fingers find another place where her beautiful wolf is sticky and slick for her. Her heartbeat quickens, a sense of pride and desire blooming hotly across her chest as she glides her fingertips teasingly between those lips. Savoring just how hot Cellinia feels, Mai caresses along her slit, dragging her knuckles softly along the soft flesh and marveling at how soaked her fingers become without even entering yet. Then Mai draws back just a bit, her gaze locked onto Cellinia's. A deep flush graces her cheeks but her eyes carry an unmistakable spark of boldness.]

I only need you, too.

[This vow, Mai breathes against Cellinia's lips, hushed as if a secret for her ears only. They've done well, these two foolish girls, crafting this makeshift sanctuary where they can entertain an even more foolish feeling, dancing around it, nurturing it with pretty words and prettier promises. They know exactly what they're doing, they know that this shall spell their ruin— but haven't they already agreed to endure this beautiful fate at the other's hands?

Mai hasn't forgotten. She doubts that she ever could, no matter how shameful anyone else might have found her secret pleas to the beast she had willingly let herself be ensnared by. Here, together like this, her greed is allowed to burn away the shame etched into her bones.]

Just like this. Just for me.

[Her voice is a soft coo, alluring and yet needy, before she takes another kiss for her greedy self. Craving something more after letting her fingers have their teasing fun, Mai slows them to a halt against Cellinia's entrance, pressing two fingertips there for a moment. Her own body shudders and melts at the pleasure gifted to her by Cellinia's own hands, but the idea of the two of them eventually losing themselves to ecstasy together clings eagerly to her, and Mai eases her fingers into her lover without much resistance. She sighs in satisfaction at the feeling of being enveloped in her slick heat, wasting no time building a slow and steady rhythm of slipping in and out. Mai adds a third finger, partly out of impatience though mostly because she knows that her pretty wolf can take it. She doesn't hasten her pace, instead relishing the sensation whenever she sinks herself in deeply.]

Cellinia…

[Oh, Mai could sigh her name like this forever— but, 'forever' would be too greedy, even for her, no?]

[swordpour]

(how fitting is it that the beautiful monster is the one to look upon her like she means something. the wolf is tender, cruelly so in how she makes a girl feel so special. devotion is such an interesting idea from a woman like her, isn’t it? when one has so little, it’s only unsurprising that the monsters themselves would find an appeal in souls that were rotted down to being poison themselves. half formed or not, there was such a sweet appeal in what cellinia reaches for with darkly sworn oaths of blood and despair. what better a lover, a match, than someone who knows the sting of hatred toward her own name? legacy does little, honor was only seen by those as a convenient excuse to behave as they pleased. desiring justice of a twisted sort while telling others that they were simply wishing to help those in need, playing at being human for the sake of appearances. except they weren’t human, they weren’t anything remotely close to human by demeanor alone when given the chance to feast like wild savage animals.

but irony is such a delicious thing, cellinia is no saint, and there’s proof of it in her choice to sin here and now with a girl who provoked ruin. whispers on a makeshift altar whereupon they choose what may or may not come of this union of theirs and how the other monsters might believe them to be something so terrible in their willful ignorance about the way something like love works. it would only be seen as a foolish endeavor, a game to those bastards who would never understand the way their hearts seem to react. what a funny thought that is, that they might even be able to make something of themselves in their eyes. the pretty wolf doesn’t seem fazed by this position they found themselves in, not that she’s had time to think about it and what it entails. what could possibly go wrong in this love which they ignore the makings of to play pretend. they aren’t delicate maidens, but something more cruel than that in their own way. which makes this wolf saving this girl amusing. she doesn’t seek to end this by rapidly devouring her, she’s savoring the hunt and chase that it offers.

how it stimulates her mind, holds her attention without trying from how they both flirted, though cellinia never was a good flirt. that she might have been doing it more naturally speaks some volumes of what kind of presence that mai in her half-formed heart has by words alone and devious whispers of ruin. beautiful anomaly, paradox, it didn’t matter what cellinia is at the end of it. if she could go against whatever the world, fate, anything such as that desires, then why not make it so for a pretty goddess while sweet death sought to originally take her for itself? it’s only fitting for a monster to rip away a poor wayward soul from death’s very own icy grip by making the choices that change such a fate by taking her for herself.

so she whispers it, she needs this foolish girl. though they both are fools, were she to be more honest in that regard. fools who were so twisted into what they are now. there is no soul clean of anything between them. cellinia is transfixed on her, the pretty wolf, which has her eyes glimmer in darkly ignited pleasure. those eyes which are mesmerizing and pretty, sharp as they take in any details. like staring into the soul and deciding that they’re not leaving. so pretty, so unwilling to look away.

she didn’t have to.

all she had to do was listen to the way mai groans out so softly, her sharp breaths like music to the wolf who feels herself sighing out breathlessly sweet notes in response to the kiss. it was easy to steal away her breath by this goddess, they’re both making mistakes that anyone sane would have avoided. that was far from mind for the wolf, not even until after this would cellinia start to think about it. if only slightly, she might not even bother to consider then until it’s too late that she had promised something more than most would have dreamed of for a girl who had nothing left except precious little that her greedy hands would have held tightly on to. something that cellinia understood too well, as she had been in a precarious position which would have ended her if not for one kind soul.

their kiss bruised lips and breathless sighs, moans, whatever they might call it are proof enough that they’re only going to lose what grasp of reason and sanity that remains for them. having such things were only pointless when it comes to the affairs of monsters. it wasn’t worth the energy to maintain that part of themselves with this kind of storm that entangles them. they’ll never be the same, that is true for cellinia. in the way she touches mai, it’s only another part of this carnal desire mixed with love that they willfully ignore.

she didn’t need to think, she only needed the taste of her lips and the sound of her voice with each plunge of her fingers. the whimpers, her ragged breathing while her walls tighten around her fingers. how perfect is she for her? the wolf sees her as a lovely goddess, her own little red riding hood. just look at how pretty she is while with a deep flush across her beautiful face in response to pleasure being granted to her for her own reward in enduring for long enough for one of them to get her hair washed. for even hanging on tight as the wolf called her, hers, in response to the taunting she did.

it’s too perfect, especially in how she breathes out shaky sighs of her own between stolen kisses and their bodies having a deep craving on this makeshift altar. forget about reality, it’s done so little for them. it’s never been kind to girls like them, once bright-eyed and pure. cruel reality, it only offers another poison meant to tear them to pieces with doubt, hesitation, and darker thoughts about what offerings they gave in demeaning ways directed at themselves and their cursing of their vulnerability as though it were a worthless thing. unfortunate how it doesn’t work that way with wishing it might disappear, the parts of themselves that could only ever long to be healed like wounded children that are deep within them.

children who didn’t deserve the future given to them, though one had risen above the way it intended to destroy her for the crime of living past a night that would have killed her had she not be so fortunate. so lucky that their intentions, that the silver wolf and others within her life hadn’t decided to allow her to live. she was worth more dead than alive in the old country to most. but not to them, them who thought her last name and the wretched way it carries a weight to it was worth that effort.

she’ll make her miserable existence, her going against reason, worth something more. more than those monsters had ever taught mai, this is a lesson in living freely. taking as she desires, saw fit, with an offering of a beast’s body and very own leash for a girl like her. it’s an exquisite gift, isn’t it? her own beast, something she can mark solely as belonging to her and no other in these spoken words and whispers like they’re keeping secrets from some manner of outside presences that could be listening. she wants that greed, she wants everything her goddess has to offer without realizing how much that sweetness would destroy them when the day comes for it to collect its due price.

the price of love in how she whines for her goddess, the caress of fingers along her wet folds. that tease of it is enough to make cellinia feel as though she would lose her mind without her touch, she’s burning so hotly for her between that and the ever deepening kisses. the slick movements of their tongues. her body needs her touch, won’t she give her it? from the low whimper, the hungry groans they share between kisses, one would think she would die without her. without this in how it makes her feel, her own fingers are deep inside mai. they slow. almost as though to match mai while they’re like this and restrain herself from pushing so soon to bring her red riding hood to the edge.)

Mai....

(so pretty, so lovely how her voice strains when mai’s own fingers sink into the wet heat. how she says her name, it’s so beautiful. her body didn’t resist, it welcomes her in how she looks at her lover. beautiful ruin, her free hand finds itself reaching for mai. bringing them both nice and proper on their sides, close, so close and able to see one another better as they both made a choice. they won’t fall to ruin alone. mai desired cellinia to fall with her, then it’s only fitting her rhythm matches that of hers. she’s being so good for her, as amusing as it is that they both could be only when their hands are preoccupied with their bodies.

her walls tighten around her fingers on reflex when mai adds a third finger, she could take it. she is taking it, so easily and even moaning breathlessly for her, such pretty sounds. into their kiss that her greedy lover takes again for herself. she almost melts from need. forever might be too greedy, but it might even be too greedy were mai to desire to keep hearing the way cellinia might moan her name in kind. the wolf already likes too well how her goddess loves to say her own name. what wonderful music they make while giving these prayers on the makeshift altar, she might never stop praying if it means she can see her again.)