( this was a lot for a dilettante like her; a woman who only touched the surface of things because she was so afraid of truly diving into her emotions and confronting the darkness of it all. she'd been so eager to buoy heavier topics and feelings to the surface, using sex and playfulness to run from it. however people needed her, this confession was clearly some kind of cry for help in being understood.
she knew what that was like, being spoken about poorly for something out of her control. she was half american, half japanese; a mutt as some of her schoolmates had called her back in the day. now those same people were begging for her to come back to their hometown and perform for them.
their worlds were different but alas, there was always some mutual understanding. )
you're here now though. away from all of that with people who like and love you for what you are. so live your life here, and try to be happy. for your own sake.
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Date: 2026-04-12 07:45 pm (UTC)( this was a lot for a dilettante like her; a woman who only touched the surface of things because she was so afraid of truly diving into her emotions and confronting the darkness of it all. she'd been so eager to buoy heavier topics and feelings to the surface, using sex and playfulness to run from it. however people needed her, this confession was clearly some kind of cry for help in being understood.
she knew what that was like, being spoken about poorly for something out of her control. she was half american, half japanese; a mutt as some of her schoolmates had called her back in the day. now those same people were begging for her to come back to their hometown and perform for them.
their worlds were different but alas, there was always some mutual understanding. )
you're here now though. away from all of that with people who like and love you for what you are. so live your life here, and try to be happy. for your own sake.
even if it isn't the kind of freedom you want.