I have, yes. I was going around East Sophia in my spare time to track down anything useful we can use for scrap metal, while also checking out if there were any other spaces that could be used for it. I figured that it couldn't hurt to because of the job Chuuya paid me to do.
Some of them were happy to trade when I mentioned that we didn't mind offering what services we could for it, as well as me offering to run things from shops to other districts in exchange.
[ Chuuya's got people doing jobs? Interesting... ]
I'm glad to hear people are trusting us enough to trade and to be interested in services. That's what we want, and I think we should continue collaborating and cooperating with the people here as much as possible.
[ Which Texas is already doing, so Mel won't beat the dead horse. ]
I think we should do more of it, actually. I know the goal is for us to help the people here but Patho-Gen hasn't given us much to go by. I'm also wondering if we should be splitting up, keeping an eye on the districts - both to look for changes or sudden difficulties with the people, like disappearances, but also to get ourselves noticed. Get people to trust us more.
(she'll likely tell her more later, just not over the network.)
I can agree with that. If we're going to be here for the foreseeable future, then it's best to do whatever we can.
(not only by keeping their guard up around patho-gen, but also by working with the citizens. this kind of work is the work she would often do in her youth. she's every bit a natural still at it, mediating or coming up with deals and exchanges, while back then using her family's own good name as a means of achieving it.)
It would also help us build rapport, thinking about it. With eyes and ears around the city: that leaves us with the option of allowing us to catch things such as rumors or like you said about sudden shifts in the districts. Exactly like with the disappearances, since a small part of me doubts those men would stop at East Sophian's were they to show again.
The directives from the Velvet Claw are only the start of what we can do. Our work with the Steel Wing is another, and then us and like-minded people gathering around wherever and whenever possible to help should also be another tick in our favor. Not everyone is happy we're here, not everyone will change their minds, but nobody said change starts easy.
[ She's right on target. This makes explaining so much easier. ]
Precisely my concern. And I do not know that they'll stop with Karterians, either.
[ Though the risk to the Augmented is low because of their abilities, their connections, and their Souls...one can never be too careful. ]
It will be an uphill battle, but one we have to take. We can start with presence and rapport, building understanding. Helping out where we can, especially if we can do it for free. People don't have money; it's better to accrue reputational debt or even be able to trade than to put the citizens at a disadvantage with us. The more that we show our care - at least among us who DO care - the more we can prove our worth and our meaning to them.
And ensure that it isn't taken from them, like so many other things have been.
Which leaves the possibility that those of us who led peaceful lives are at risk.
(low or not, she wouldn't put it past them to snatch those who can hardly defend themselves off the streets. it's a worry for another time.)
Like what I'm doing with offering labor and any other exchanges they'd like to request from us. Trades are always useful if they're open to it, especially if both sides reach an acceptable agreement. I've done this before in the past with brokering deals and mediating between groups that had their differences while offering what I saw as good enough to keep the peace for what civilians would have been at risk. I wouldn't call myself amazing at it.(no, that's untrue. her grandfather wouldn't have decided on her to take over the family if she wasn't worth the effort he was giving her.)But I know that I rather ensure that not all of them feel like we're here to take things and give nothing in return.
And if that means I take on extra work on the side while helping with our mutual goals, then that's fine for me. My bosses slogan for us wasn't deliveries guaranteed for nothing as it's main one.
[ Which she can't precisely call out to a larger extent, when she's a woman with about six to eight plans running at any given moment. But it sounds more like Texas is already putting in the work and knowing the pockets that may need the most attention so far. She's already considering trade instead of monetary compensation. ]
I don't want anyone doing too much unless we have a larger swath of reliable, conscientious people working on this. People running out of steam - or becoming inured to suffering - is the last thing we want.
[ Morally grey people can still help, of course, if there is mutual benefit. But she draws the line at people who are going to use this vulnerability for their own gain or worse. The amount of good that may come out of this, such as the people trusting them even over a potential subversion from the government or Patho-Gen, is enough of a subtle manipulation in and of itself.
She wants this more angled to be as mutual as possible. ]
(she's been a busy wolf, admittedly. working keeps her mind focused on anything other than some of her issues about the environment, or about how much she misses her friends. it can't be helped, being the sole terran in this environment hasn't done any good for her.)
If you need a break too, should we get tea then later? Since it's a big undertaking, we both probably are due a respite for a bit. My nonno, grandfather sorry, would often do similar by taking me outside whenever I was with him to spend time in the city together when I was younger.
(a walk, some refreshment, and a chance to unwind for a bit would help with them. she'll likely see if she can drag ace out to join for whatever they choose to do if it's not just going out for tea. of them, texas is more flexible. she doesn't always come up with plans. a golden rule of penguin logistics was to go with the vibes, leave one's common sense at the door and roll with it. though that's an interesting policy, that's how it's always been.
it worked for them, especially with the way that the emperor ran the company and gave the girls encouragement in their autonomy.)
Back home, Boss would remind us to go with the vibes. The atmosphere, that it's okay to not think and go while rolling with what gets thrown at you. Not everything has to be complicated.
(if there's people they need to deal with themselves, then that can come later. patho-gen and the government might even use those who would take advantage of the chaos for their own personal gain as an example of why not to trust them, but she won't think too much about it. not for now, though she'll leave out the part where penguin logistics was not liked by the people of lungmen for their chaotic antics, that's not what this is about.)
[ She hadn't really been offering for a break for herself. It's something she does, holding people at a distance, expressing her concerns while not extending more to herself. Mel doesn't have skills here - she's not a scout, she doesn't know how to sneak around, doesn't know how to wield a sword. By all rights, she has no reason to want or ask for a break. (Or maybe she just thinks if she stops moving, something else will go wrong.)
But it can't hurt to meet up and get to know her co-workers better, or to indulge in a moment. ]
We can do that. It'd likely be wise to do so at the end of most weeks so we can track trends and check on each other.
[ The part about vibes, though... She's not sure what a 'vibe' is, but she can glean enough from Texas' comment. ]
Unfortunately, I think things are often more complicated than they appear to be.
(while mel isn't a scout, a master swordswoman, or even someone who is used to conventional weaponry: texas doesn't see it as a detriment to what they are doing from the short time in which they've gotten to know one another. words are a weapon, that is always something she considers first and foremost. words carry a weight in them and use of their own in how they make or break things. conventional weapons are not the sole thing used in fights like what they have ahead of them, now that will be a fight in itself with how things could go.
she doesn't see this as an excuse, but more that they also could use the opportunities. if the three of them gel together like she presumes, it also provides chances for them to have a shot at bonding with what they're willing to speak about in between their work.)
Alright. It'd be a good chance for us to take a breather without wearing ourselves out.
(this isn't penguin logistics and it's parties after anything major happens, but she can explain modern slang if asked later. well, modern for terra. she isn't positive on how much of it holds up for other worlds.)
I noticed. I'd say that it doesn't apply all the time, but I look at it more as if it suggests for us to take a step back and breathe. Letting things slip by like the little moments of relaxation you can get only makes it more complicated.
[ She mulls on that for a bit, so there's initially no response. Having lived a life apart for so long, with people held at arm's length, it's always been easier to step to her own goals and to do what was necessary for her ambitions. The cost to herself has been mostly negligible. The habit is hard to break, to continue to keep apart from others. Keeping busy is just a part of that, too; if she has enough projects, she doesn't need to feel lonely, and then she can feel useful.
It's difficult to be on the other side of that. ]
You said your boss told you this back home? They seem quite wise.
[ She's not just saying that. ]
If nothing else, stillness allows us to gain better perspective. And perhaps that, too, can help us avoid having too many regrets down the line.
[ Whether that is the regret of an opportunity missed or not being as ready for a moment of action, or making wrong choices. ]
He meant well for us. I'll be the first to admit he can be a pain in the ass with some things he does, but I owe him a lot.
(if it wasn't for him, texas doubts she would have pulled herself out of the fire. there weren't comparisons of her being like a corpse for nothing back then in how empty she felt. anger and doubt could seep into one's life to a greater extent, sometimes ruining them to pieces after what she's done. it only hasn't because gradually she learned to live, while unlearning what once made her. there were only two back then in her life that could say they know her. know of her to an extent with the other almost being in sync with her.
the hardest part of habits is to break away from them, though she could understand loneliness and wanting to feel useful. more-so the loneliness, she's felt that many times from the forced separation of herself and her friends. being dubbed a lone wolf by the old country meant no sane lupo would look her way. the scent would be obvious to them that she has no pack so that is something that she carries on even here as a solitary wolf.)
That's right. Life slipping by is only just another regret, or that's how I saw it. For me, it took me a while to learn that lesson. It doesn't matter how you started, what matters is how you want to change it and how you want to live.
(just like her. living with her own regrets, but accepting them as a part of her life. she found her way eventually, the path she took being one that both her childhood friends would never be able to walk beside her on. this path called life and living, because she came to realize in the end, life is something that she loves in her own way.)
[ It's an interesting sentiment. Change is so very difficult to sustain. She's often wondered what it takes for someone to make, unmake, remake themselves anew each and every time. At times, she wonders if that's always been the crux of her mother's stubbornness: Mel valued change, wanted it for her mother, and she was asking her to break apart and be remade.
And here she is, left with too many regrets of her own. ]
How would you like to live, Texas? Obviously, being here isn't ideal in the slightest. But if you had things your way, what would you do?
(it's an interesting question, how does she want to live? in the past, she would have likely mentioned for her grandfather and his desire of carrying on a legacy that she once had been part of. that she, too, wishes to see siracusa that way that he did and lived in a way that would have benefit not just her family, but those around her and herself. but she had doubts, doubts any girl with such expectations on her shoulders would have. after seeing the old country, it only caused those doubts to grow on if this must be her path.
and then his demise came, cold and swift. her father did not care, he didn't express much remorse even as her sword pierced his skin through his heart. only betrayal that his own daughter could not stand for this, that she would enact justice that night by wiping clean the slate.)
In the past, I would have had a different answer. Now, I only look at it as I desire to be free. To make my choices, to have those regrets, to remember those near and dear to me. I want to live a life that is not just free, but a life that would keep those important to me safe.
I want to live for them, too. They've all done so much for me in their own ways that I doubt that I would have been the same person that I am now without it.
[ In a way, her wish is not so dissimilar to Mel's own. She may not have so many loved ones in that sense, but there is still a desire to protect what little she has left. But where Texas speaks of being free, well... It makes her wonder what Texas has gone through to feel she hasn't been free in the first place, that she's lived a life that isn't her own. ]
You're speaking of a life that I think most people want for themselves and for others around them. Most normal people, I would say.
[ And there are those who don't spare much thought for others and sees them more as stepping stones. ]
It might be difficult to do in a place like this, where we're all technically trapped. But you've a kind heart to want that for others, just the same, and to be willing to help them find that path.
It took me a long time to reach this, honestly. Seven years. Seven years of thinking, seven years of gradually letting go of doubts I had.
(being a young lady in the life of the mafiosi came with its own struggles, women aren't supposed to be fighters. they're supposed to be the one raising the children that were born into the fold to remember their values. their honor and integrity. it's a life far too brutal for anyone normal, a life that should never be wished upon others while she remembers it.
she knows it too well. but it changes little, she doesn't think of herself as having a kind heart, she thinks of herself as being selfish. though that? that is far from the truth, she's not as selfish as she believes. texas has done things because she could not stand by, not while others were hurt further and further. civilians who were powerless, her friends. she was angry, angry to be brought back into the violence that once threatened to claim her life had she stayed. she was angry because she wished for nothing more than not only her freedom, but for it to end this senseless bloodshed.)
I'd do the same for anyone if I care about them, both of my childhood friends knew that even if we all chose different paths. Even if it means we might not one day see one another again.
[ Hah. Then Texas is much further along down this kind of path than Mel is. She smiles at the device as she reads, but it's a melancholy thing. It sounds like Texas has had to choose between a life of expectation and a life she may want, even at the cost of so much. She seems so young, though that means nothing; plenty of people have suffered from the time of childhood, and she won't look down on Texas or pity her for it. ]
You've been through so much difficulty, it seems. And then you were brought here where nothing has eased.
[ Ace will be a good friend to her, she thinks. He's always smiling, though she fears that's just for show. ]
I hope you know you don't need to face your difficulties here on your own.
(she really has gone through a lot, even for someone as young as her. nothing could be changed, but perhaps one day she might talk about it willingly to someone other than chuuya who knew about her secret from their imprinting. about her former ties, her blood ties. there was just a certain air about her that made it obvious in how both of them got along too well.)
Home was....draining, to put it lightly.
(nothing more needed to be said. nothing more than that, but she knows she can agree about ace. she does worry. admittedly, she also worries about mel as someone that can gradually consider the other woman a friend. she didn't need to carry her own weight on her shoulders alone, too.)
I know. Sometimes it takes time to remember that, trust isn't something I give easily. But, whenever I do trust someone....I'll do anything for a friend.
Even before that, we are your co-workers for the time being. We can succeed better together and with a proper understanding of the barriers presented to us.
[ And not just in work, though she can understand the need for privacy and distance. It's not as though Mel isn't keeping her own cards close to her chest. She's being a hypocrite, anyway, requesting that others lean on her while not doing the same herself. It just feels sometimes that her problems pale in comparison to others, especially for someone like Ace who seems to be doing so much work, and with such a bleak outlook on the time he has. ]
Regardless, let's discuss with Ace about doing weekly meetings for the time being. I want to give the proposal for the mail lockers soon so we can work on drumming up support for more jobs, and then perhaps that will be incentive enough to get other pieces of our work moving.
[ Like repairing the ServiTrons, allowing for more mail hours, even running a public relations campaign for funding. ]
I know. I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't trust both of you to have my back based off our conversations.
(she does things within reason, typically. because they both are people she can trust, then she wouldn't hold herself back from acting accordingly by following their lead. which is why she worries after them both, she might always. young or not, she wouldn't allow them to feel as if they had to go things alone, after her own experiences with that.)
Okay. But....I have one more thing to mention. I brought up to the person I'm imprinted on something else that happened last month.(since she hadn't told her yet....)Those suits from before, I went back again at one point and my partner at the time was shoved for trying to catch one. I attempted to tackle him, and suddenly I was unconscious. Exactly like when Patho-Gen does it.
(it's better that she tells mel first, ace? she's more worried about how he could react.)
[ There's a fleeting sense of gratitude when Texas says she trusts her, replaced quickly by concern over what she reveals. Mel's fingers shift over the device, uncertain, disliking the implications. A few possibilities come to mind, each one worse than the last: that these are Patho-Gen's people carrying out experiments or taking souls; that these are people Patho-Gen knows but will not reach out to stop, and who have access to their technology; that there is something greater at work, that perhaps Patho-Gen is part of a larger whole.
Each piece feels worse than the last. Mel frowns, almost glaring at the device. ]
I'm glad you're safe. Was someone able to wake you or did you need to go back to Patho-Gen for aid?
I was woken up not long after, by then he was gone.
(the worrisome part is that they have no idea who or what faction those men were part of. she did discuss with momo and salome that there was no way that this could be patho-gen's own, so it's something else entirely. something that recreated the clickers, she already isn't liking the sound of it. those men will be a problem. if augmented can be taken by them, that means that they'll all need to maintain some manner of defenses by not staying alone for long at any time they can manage.
this doesn't look good, admittedly. hidden factions at play can be rougher than the ones they know about, such as the government, the different classes, and patho-gen itself.)
I didn't mention it to Ace yet because I'm worried more how he might react. The factions we know of are one thing, but if there are hidden factions? The concerning part is what they're after that requires them to have the same devices.
[ So it didn't require a trip to Patho-Gen, which, while lucky...also means there wasn't an opportunity to ask them why it happened in the first place. That's likely on purpose. But it's a concern, because it means any attempts to follow these people could put any of the Augmented in danger. And they can't exactly ask a citizen to help them.
It's irritating. ]
It's also possible these people were once aligned with Patho-Gen or a subset of them, like contractors. They may have access to the same technology without technically being Patho-Gen to avoid suspicion.
[ People who come in and clean up problems. But they have to either be in the city somewhere or they must be hiding somewhere else, and that means there has to be somewhere with similar protections to Karteria. ]
Ace likely won't take it well. But this kind of information is something we need to be aware of to keep ourselves safe.
....it's worrisome, I can say that much. We already have the groups that are out in the open, Patho-Gen, the government, and the class separations. A hidden group is....not necessarily a good look for our problems.
The monster population was behaving strangely during that time frame: which caused me to believe that they're unintentionally, that is if this was unintended, are potentially the source behind it. But this is only a theory myself and another person considered as possible.
(that time she was lucky, she doubts she'll always be lucky. given how those tools of theirs works, the tech behind it would cause them to have to watch their backs more. she needed to inform momo later, others, too. if those men come back, and they aren't careful, they could wind up disappearing.)
It's difficult to say if it were true. I only know that the three of us will need to be careful more. Hidden enemies are bound to show themselves eventually.
But this also means we have to consider the other possibilities, such as involving others carefully while doing our best to not place any civilians or any other augmented incapable of fighting much in unnecessary danger.
[ There is only so much they can do on their own, try as they might. But to ask for help means only to draw in others who will become targets. She knows the post office idea is not going to be well-received by all; worse, she knows having eyes on the streets is tantamount to spying and will likely not be as well-received either if the people see it as such.
It's likely things will become more and more dangerous as they try to make changes, and even more so with their own corruptions. The idea of asking anyone to wade into danger for her goals is... ]
We will need to start assessing how we can mitigate the damage. I ask all of you for this help because I trust you, and because I believe you can do what's best to keep things safe. But do not hesitate to back out of any of this if it feels too dangerous — if you must protect yourself. There is no shame to it. I can't ask anyone to put themselves in harm's way because of my lofty hopes.
(an out, she knows she can take it. she knows truly that there were risks in this, too many of them in a way. but could she walk away? she knows the answer to that question, it's like leon and lavinia asking her to help. it's like how they wished to change the old county into something more than it's bloodied history of betrayal and death. rain that never seemed to stop pouring, maybe like heaven itself had been crying at the thought that they all were reduced down to kill or be killed.
a dangerous game, but she recognizes what this is for. she knows. they'll all be making enemies, and the government already wasn't a fan of her for this decision she's made in giving them her answer. no, she won't back away. she wouldn't forgive herself, the same way she did it for lavinia until disappearing again for a time.)
I'm not backing out.
If I did, whether it's now or in the future, then I'd wind up furious at myself for doing that. This isn't the first time I've made enemies of certain factions. In the old country, I knew what it meant. Even with how I got involved again, back then for me: I wasn't going to leave things the way they were. I'm not doing this with leaving behind people that I trust because things got rougher than we all expected.
We're in this together, and I won't stop, either. As long as we all can keep going.
(to the end, she means. though this is the first time she spoke of siracusa, of life there a little.)
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Date: 2025-06-04 02:13 pm (UTC)I was going around East Sophia in my spare time to track down anything useful we can use for scrap metal, while also checking out if there were any other spaces that could be used for it. I figured that it couldn't hurt to because of the job Chuuya paid me to do.
Some of them were happy to trade when I mentioned that we didn't mind offering what services we could for it, as well as me offering to run things from shops to other districts in exchange.
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Date: 2025-06-04 02:23 pm (UTC)I'm glad to hear people are trusting us enough to trade and to be interested in services. That's what we want, and I think we should continue collaborating and cooperating with the people here as much as possible.
[ Which Texas is already doing, so Mel won't beat the dead horse. ]
I think we should do more of it, actually. I know the goal is for us to help the people here but Patho-Gen hasn't given us much to go by. I'm also wondering if we should be splitting up, keeping an eye on the districts - both to look for changes or sudden difficulties with the people, like disappearances, but also to get ourselves noticed. Get people to trust us more.
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Date: 2025-06-04 02:45 pm (UTC)I can agree with that. If we're going to be here for the foreseeable future, then it's best to do whatever we can.
(not only by keeping their guard up around patho-gen, but also by working with the citizens. this kind of work is the work she would often do in her youth. she's every bit a natural still at it, mediating or coming up with deals and exchanges, while back then using her family's own good name as a means of achieving it.)
It would also help us build rapport, thinking about it. With eyes and ears around the city: that leaves us with the option of allowing us to catch things such as rumors or like you said about sudden shifts in the districts. Exactly like with the disappearances, since a small part of me doubts those men would stop at East Sophian's were they to show again.
The directives from the Velvet Claw are only the start of what we can do. Our work with the Steel Wing is another, and then us and like-minded people gathering around wherever and whenever possible to help should also be another tick in our favor. Not everyone is happy we're here, not everyone will change their minds, but nobody said change starts easy.
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Date: 2025-06-04 02:48 pm (UTC)Precisely my concern. And I do not know that they'll stop with Karterians, either.
[ Though the risk to the Augmented is low because of their abilities, their connections, and their Souls...one can never be too careful. ]
It will be an uphill battle, but one we have to take. We can start with presence and rapport, building understanding. Helping out where we can, especially if we can do it for free. People don't have money; it's better to accrue reputational debt or even be able to trade than to put the citizens at a disadvantage with us. The more that we show our care - at least among us who DO care - the more we can prove our worth and our meaning to them.
And ensure that it isn't taken from them, like so many other things have been.
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Date: 2025-06-04 03:20 pm (UTC)(low or not, she wouldn't put it past them to snatch those who can hardly defend themselves off the streets. it's a worry for another time.)
Like what I'm doing with offering labor and any other exchanges they'd like to request from us. Trades are always useful if they're open to it, especially if both sides reach an acceptable agreement. I've done this before in the past with brokering deals and mediating between groups that had their differences while offering what I saw as good enough to keep the peace for what civilians would have been at risk. I wouldn't call myself amazing at it. (no, that's untrue. her grandfather wouldn't have decided on her to take over the family if she wasn't worth the effort he was giving her.) But I know that I rather ensure that not all of them feel like we're here to take things and give nothing in return.
And if that means I take on extra work on the side while helping with our mutual goals, then that's fine for me. My bosses slogan for us wasn't deliveries guaranteed for nothing as it's main one.
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Date: 2025-06-05 01:06 am (UTC)[ Which she can't precisely call out to a larger extent, when she's a woman with about six to eight plans running at any given moment. But it sounds more like Texas is already putting in the work and knowing the pockets that may need the most attention so far. She's already considering trade instead of monetary compensation. ]
I don't want anyone doing too much unless we have a larger swath of reliable, conscientious people working on this. People running out of steam - or becoming inured to suffering - is the last thing we want.
[ Morally grey people can still help, of course, if there is mutual benefit. But she draws the line at people who are going to use this vulnerability for their own gain or worse. The amount of good that may come out of this, such as the people trusting them even over a potential subversion from the government or Patho-Gen, is enough of a subtle manipulation in and of itself.
She wants this more angled to be as mutual as possible. ]
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Date: 2025-06-05 05:45 am (UTC)(she's been a busy wolf, admittedly. working keeps her mind focused on anything other than some of her issues about the environment, or about how much she misses her friends. it can't be helped, being the sole terran in this environment hasn't done any good for her.)
If you need a break too, should we get tea then later? Since it's a big undertaking, we both probably are due a respite for a bit. My nonno, grandfather sorry, would often do similar by taking me outside whenever I was with him to spend time in the city together when I was younger.
(a walk, some refreshment, and a chance to unwind for a bit would help with them. she'll likely see if she can drag ace out to join for whatever they choose to do if it's not just going out for tea. of them, texas is more flexible. she doesn't always come up with plans. a golden rule of penguin logistics was to go with the vibes, leave one's common sense at the door and roll with it. though that's an interesting policy, that's how it's always been.
it worked for them, especially with the way that the emperor ran the company and gave the girls encouragement in their autonomy.)
Back home, Boss would remind us to go with the vibes. The atmosphere, that it's okay to not think and go while rolling with what gets thrown at you. Not everything has to be complicated.
(if there's people they need to deal with themselves, then that can come later. patho-gen and the government might even use those who would take advantage of the chaos for their own personal gain as an example of why not to trust them, but she won't think too much about it. not for now, though she'll leave out the part where penguin logistics was not liked by the people of lungmen for their chaotic antics, that's not what this is about.)
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Date: 2025-06-06 04:55 pm (UTC)But it can't hurt to meet up and get to know her co-workers better, or to indulge in a moment. ]
We can do that. It'd likely be wise to do so at the end of most weeks so we can track trends and check on each other.
[ The part about vibes, though... She's not sure what a 'vibe' is, but she can glean enough from Texas' comment. ]
Unfortunately, I think things are often more complicated than they appear to be.
no worries, happens to the best of us o7
Date: 2025-06-06 05:48 pm (UTC)she doesn't see this as an excuse, but more that they also could use the opportunities. if the three of them gel together like she presumes, it also provides chances for them to have a shot at bonding with what they're willing to speak about in between their work.)
Alright. It'd be a good chance for us to take a breather without wearing ourselves out.
(this isn't penguin logistics and it's parties after anything major happens, but she can explain modern slang if asked later. well, modern for terra. she isn't positive on how much of it holds up for other worlds.)
I noticed. I'd say that it doesn't apply all the time, but I look at it more as if it suggests for us to take a step back and breathe. Letting things slip by like the little moments of relaxation you can get only makes it more complicated.
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Date: 2025-06-06 07:45 pm (UTC)It's difficult to be on the other side of that. ]
You said your boss told you this back home? They seem quite wise.
[ She's not just saying that. ]
If nothing else, stillness allows us to gain better perspective. And perhaps that, too, can help us avoid having too many regrets down the line.
[ Whether that is the regret of an opportunity missed or not being as ready for a moment of action, or making wrong choices. ]
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Date: 2025-06-09 12:06 pm (UTC)(if it wasn't for him, texas doubts she would have pulled herself out of the fire. there weren't comparisons of her being like a corpse for nothing back then in how empty she felt. anger and doubt could seep into one's life to a greater extent, sometimes ruining them to pieces after what she's done. it only hasn't because gradually she learned to live, while unlearning what once made her. there were only two back then in her life that could say they know her. know of her to an extent with the other almost being in sync with her.
the hardest part of habits is to break away from them, though she could understand loneliness and wanting to feel useful. more-so the loneliness, she's felt that many times from the forced separation of herself and her friends. being dubbed a lone wolf by the old country meant no sane lupo would look her way. the scent would be obvious to them that she has no pack so that is something that she carries on even here as a solitary wolf.)
That's right. Life slipping by is only just another regret, or that's how I saw it. For me, it took me a while to learn that lesson. It doesn't matter how you started, what matters is how you want to change it and how you want to live.
(just like her. living with her own regrets, but accepting them as a part of her life. she found her way eventually, the path she took being one that both her childhood friends would never be able to walk beside her on. this path called life and living, because she came to realize in the end, life is something that she loves in her own way.)
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Date: 2025-06-14 02:02 am (UTC)And here she is, left with too many regrets of her own. ]
How would you like to live, Texas? Obviously, being here isn't ideal in the slightest. But if you had things your way, what would you do?
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Date: 2025-06-18 10:16 pm (UTC)and then his demise came, cold and swift. her father did not care, he didn't express much remorse even as her sword pierced his skin through his heart. only betrayal that his own daughter could not stand for this, that she would enact justice that night by wiping clean the slate.)
In the past, I would have had a different answer. Now, I only look at it as I desire to be free. To make my choices, to have those regrets, to remember those near and dear to me. I want to live a life that is not just free, but a life that would keep those important to me safe.
I want to live for them, too. They've all done so much for me in their own ways that I doubt that I would have been the same person that I am now without it.
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Date: 2025-06-20 09:53 pm (UTC)You're speaking of a life that I think most people want for themselves and for others around them. Most normal people, I would say.
[ And there are those who don't spare much thought for others and sees them more as stepping stones. ]
It might be difficult to do in a place like this, where we're all technically trapped. But you've a kind heart to want that for others, just the same, and to be willing to help them find that path.
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Date: 2025-06-20 10:08 pm (UTC)(being a young lady in the life of the mafiosi came with its own struggles, women aren't supposed to be fighters. they're supposed to be the one raising the children that were born into the fold to remember their values. their honor and integrity. it's a life far too brutal for anyone normal, a life that should never be wished upon others while she remembers it.
she knows it too well. but it changes little, she doesn't think of herself as having a kind heart, she thinks of herself as being selfish. though that? that is far from the truth, she's not as selfish as she believes. texas has done things because she could not stand by, not while others were hurt further and further. civilians who were powerless, her friends. she was angry, angry to be brought back into the violence that once threatened to claim her life had she stayed. she was angry because she wished for nothing more than not only her freedom, but for it to end this senseless bloodshed.)
I'd do the same for anyone if I care about them, both of my childhood friends knew that even if we all chose different paths. Even if it means we might not one day see one another again.
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Date: 2025-06-22 12:04 am (UTC)You've been through so much difficulty, it seems. And then you were brought here where nothing has eased.
[ Ace will be a good friend to her, she thinks. He's always smiling, though she fears that's just for show. ]
I hope you know you don't need to face your difficulties here on your own.
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Date: 2025-06-23 09:23 am (UTC)Home was....draining, to put it lightly.
(nothing more needed to be said. nothing more than that, but she knows she can agree about ace. she does worry. admittedly, she also worries about mel as someone that can gradually consider the other woman a friend. she didn't need to carry her own weight on her shoulders alone, too.)
I know. Sometimes it takes time to remember that, trust isn't something I give easily. But, whenever I do trust someone....I'll do anything for a friend.
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Date: 2025-06-23 03:29 pm (UTC)[ And not just in work, though she can understand the need for privacy and distance. It's not as though Mel isn't keeping her own cards close to her chest. She's being a hypocrite, anyway, requesting that others lean on her while not doing the same herself. It just feels sometimes that her problems pale in comparison to others, especially for someone like Ace who seems to be doing so much work, and with such a bleak outlook on the time he has. ]
Regardless, let's discuss with Ace about doing weekly meetings for the time being. I want to give the proposal for the mail lockers soon so we can work on drumming up support for more jobs, and then perhaps that will be incentive enough to get other pieces of our work moving.
[ Like repairing the ServiTrons, allowing for more mail hours, even running a public relations campaign for funding. ]
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Date: 2025-06-25 07:52 pm (UTC)(she does things within reason, typically. because they both are people she can trust, then she wouldn't hold herself back from acting accordingly by following their lead. which is why she worries after them both, she might always. young or not, she wouldn't allow them to feel as if they had to go things alone, after her own experiences with that.)
Okay. But....I have one more thing to mention. I brought up to the person I'm imprinted on something else that happened last month. (since she hadn't told her yet....) Those suits from before, I went back again at one point and my partner at the time was shoved for trying to catch one. I attempted to tackle him, and suddenly I was unconscious. Exactly like when Patho-Gen does it.
(it's better that she tells mel first, ace? she's more worried about how he could react.)
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Date: 2025-06-27 12:48 am (UTC)Each piece feels worse than the last. Mel frowns, almost glaring at the device. ]
I'm glad you're safe. Was someone able to wake you or did you need to go back to Patho-Gen for aid?
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Date: 2025-06-28 12:03 am (UTC)(the worrisome part is that they have no idea who or what faction those men were part of. she did discuss with momo and salome that there was no way that this could be patho-gen's own, so it's something else entirely. something that recreated the clickers, she already isn't liking the sound of it. those men will be a problem. if augmented can be taken by them, that means that they'll all need to maintain some manner of defenses by not staying alone for long at any time they can manage.
this doesn't look good, admittedly. hidden factions at play can be rougher than the ones they know about, such as the government, the different classes, and patho-gen itself.)
I didn't mention it to Ace yet because I'm worried more how he might react. The factions we know of are one thing, but if there are hidden factions? The concerning part is what they're after that requires them to have the same devices.
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Date: 2025-06-28 02:29 pm (UTC)It's irritating. ]
It's also possible these people were once aligned with Patho-Gen or a subset of them, like contractors. They may have access to the same technology without technically being Patho-Gen to avoid suspicion.
[ People who come in and clean up problems. But they have to either be in the city somewhere or they must be hiding somewhere else, and that means there has to be somewhere with similar protections to Karteria. ]
Ace likely won't take it well. But this kind of information is something we need to be aware of to keep ourselves safe.
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Date: 2025-06-30 03:12 pm (UTC)We already have the groups that are out in the open, Patho-Gen, the government, and the class separations. A hidden group is....not necessarily a good look for our problems.
The monster population was behaving strangely during that time frame: which caused me to believe that they're unintentionally, that is if this was unintended, are potentially the source behind it. But this is only a theory myself and another person considered as possible.
(that time she was lucky, she doubts she'll always be lucky. given how those tools of theirs works, the tech behind it would cause them to have to watch their backs more. she needed to inform momo later, others, too. if those men come back, and they aren't careful, they could wind up disappearing.)
It's difficult to say if it were true. I only know that the three of us will need to be careful more. Hidden enemies are bound to show themselves eventually.
But this also means we have to consider the other possibilities, such as involving others carefully while doing our best to not place any civilians or any other augmented incapable of fighting much in unnecessary danger.
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Date: 2025-07-01 01:18 pm (UTC)[ There is only so much they can do on their own, try as they might. But to ask for help means only to draw in others who will become targets. She knows the post office idea is not going to be well-received by all; worse, she knows having eyes on the streets is tantamount to spying and will likely not be as well-received either if the people see it as such.
It's likely things will become more and more dangerous as they try to make changes, and even more so with their own corruptions. The idea of asking anyone to wade into danger for her goals is... ]
We will need to start assessing how we can mitigate the damage. I ask all of you for this help because I trust you, and because I believe you can do what's best to keep things safe. But do not hesitate to back out of any of this if it feels too dangerous — if you must protect yourself. There is no shame to it. I can't ask anyone to put themselves in harm's way because of my lofty hopes.
Just remember that you have an out.
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Date: 2025-07-01 08:23 pm (UTC)a dangerous game, but she recognizes what this is for. she knows. they'll all be making enemies, and the government already wasn't a fan of her for this decision she's made in giving them her answer. no, she won't back away. she wouldn't forgive herself, the same way she did it for lavinia until disappearing again for a time.)
I'm not backing out.
If I did, whether it's now or in the future, then I'd wind up furious at myself for doing that. This isn't the first time I've made enemies of certain factions. In the old country, I knew what it meant. Even with how I got involved again, back then for me: I wasn't going to leave things the way they were. I'm not doing this with leaving behind people that I trust because things got rougher than we all expected.
We're in this together, and I won't stop, either. As long as we all can keep going.
(to the end, she means. though this is the first time she spoke of siracusa, of life there a little.)
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